I think i am dying, pls let me know if this is possible

Hey all fellow stoners, so so so sorry for the super long 1st post but i dont have anyone to talk to about this and im terrified. I have had bad issues since i ate several thc gummies around march 1st and its the 22nd at time of this post and was hoping to get a lil insight as im still sick.

A lil background: im 37 and weigh around 120lbs, 5'1" tall. have smoked heavily nightly for about 16 years, and the last four years i got a hookup that gets the stuff that has these names from out west (names like gorilla og, apple fritter, blue diesel, banannarama, etc?). I used to pick my stuff up wherever seedy place i could find it, couldnt be picky but i lucked out and found this regular killer hookup that has selections.

About a year and a half ago a family member got cancer and ive been helping take care of them, and since my schedule is so demanding, i had to tell fam i smoke and they were ok with it, so i started baking up whenever i got a chance through the day (i nap a lot and i smoke to help rest), in addition to pretty much smoking a sneak-a-toke from 12am to 6am almost constantly (i smoke 7-11g a week, what we called a nickel around here, between $80 and $120, its still seriously illegal where i live).

Well, dude started getting "moonrocks" and assorted edibles. I tried the moonrocks and they really didnt do anything more than the weed I was smoking, just had flavors and cost more. I have felt for a year or so that i just wasnt really getting high anymore off anything, just keeping the fiending at bay so he suggested i try edible gummies.

I got 4, and i ate the 1st one on feb28 in the midst of smoking my normal bowl and felt good, although they smelled stronger than bud and they tasted just like weed smells, no "good" taste AT ALL, more like chemicals. I got a little shaky but ive dealt with this before and it wore off by the next day. That next night, i decided to try another with my bowl. I didnt think it was working like the last, so ended up eating the other 3 and within 4 hours, i started shaking so bad and thinking i was having a heart attack, i tried to warm up beside the heater and i realized my shaking wasnt from cold, so i barely made it to bed and i struggled to keep breathing bc the muscle contractions were so intense, i couldnt even open my mouth. I was flailing like a seizure but i was fully consious.


I finally managed to go to sleep, but it was so hard bc my heart was flying and i felt like i was gonna have a stroke or heart attack and i was afraid id die in my sleep and this terrifies me. Sometime that night, my left leg cramped so hard it woke me up and it hurt for days. My foot on that leg now randomly swells, but it will sometimes be normal.

Since that night, ive had a constant nerviousness, my bp at first was like 165/106/p110 and i had a temp, but its mostly back to normal now. Sometimes my ears ring so loud and my arms feel like they go numb or very weak and they tingle, but its in my head bc i can still get busy working and i feel fine or i can take a xanax and i feel totally fine. I did my spring yard cleanup and mowed today and felt almost 100% while busy.


Its anytime i sit around and try to relax that i become aware of the heart attack/stroke/anxiety/depression feeling. Its like im standing outside myself, i cant even watch tv bc i just cant put my mind to caring. I can barely type bc im so unfocused and clumsy. A car could come up behind me and hit me and i would know what was happening but i likely wouldnt move amyways bc its like im watching a movie or something.

It wasnt apparent at that time but im pretty sure that smoking weed now makes my condition worse, it actually sets off a violent shaking spell as it kicks in and the super scary lonelyness/shaking hits me for hours, so i cut back to one pin J at 5am as i hadnt eevn tought about slowing down until i layed off it for half a day and when i finally toked, i went all to hell. Im having bad withdraws so thats why i even do it still. The smell of it unburned makes me nervous tbh. I went to the ER on the 17th bc i was sure i was gonna die, i was crying, very incoherent, tense with the shakes bad to the point my breathing was shaky when exhaling, but i did smoke two pin j's a couple hours before i had my episode. I was sure i had COVID, and weed was making it worse.

There was a cop in the ER and when i saw him when i arrived, i sobered up from the morning j's and I actually calmed down; thats why i felt almost normal by the time i got in to be worked on.


Er did a triage, physical, head ct scan, ekg, chest xray, complete lab bloodwork and urine analysis. I was expecting to hear i had a blood clot in my swollen foot from the super ultra deadly covid19 and I was gonna die, I 100% felt that way, or else id have never went to the er bc i have no health insureance. All those test came back near perfect compared to the averages, my glucose was 10 points higher than average but thats all. The doctor said im a shining example of health on paper for a 37yo, no impending strokes, heart normal size, none of this t-something chem in my blood that indicates heart damage, kidneys are fine so he told me im just stressed and released me with a script of valium. I was embarassed and scared bc they didnt find anything wrong with me, they didnt even look at my foot and acted like the tests they did would tell if i was dying. Im afraid all those tests arent really accurate at all and they missed something big.

This morning is the 1st ive not smoked since this started, i tried one hit yesterday but it made me nervious until i started my yard work but this morning i havent had any episodes where i thought i was gonna die, and the shakes and anxiety are slowly wearing off but it may be the xanax, i still get depressed or something at night and cant wait until the sun comes up in the morning. But this weird nerviousness that lingers scares me still, i can best describe it as being at the point of passing out and you know you are going, but imagine staying at that point all the time. Thats what im dealing with. Only a xanax helps, i even feel as if i could smoke again once i take one but thats what i tried yesterday morning and i regressed back to almost thinking i was gonna die again until i got busy. I did yardwork for 9hrs actually.

Long story short, is there any possibility that im still sick from the gummies? Keep in mind I didnt stop smoking completely until yesterday morning and tbh i do feel a lil better rn, but im still not right. I asked what strength the gummies were and all i was told is that they were "pretty powerful", Idk why ppl like them, they tasted like chewing on a bud of some skunky stuff, not plesant like a candy gummy tastes at all.


-My friends say that edible od'ing is total bunk, they kinda make fun of me and say im a lightweight, but im not really a lightweight at all in regards to my weed intake. They say edibles are totally safe no matter how many you eat bc weed isnt like drugs or even alcohol where you can legit od and die from.

Im afraid ive ruined my weed tolerance for life, and honestly i get suicidal when i try to accept that i may have to quit. Ive held the pistol in my hands a couple times but i cant bring myself to do it, i cant leave my family dealing with me going while another has terminal cancer. Pls just let me know guys, im so screwed up right now. I may go back to the ER again and raise immortal hell like a little brat kid and scream and cry that i KNOW something is seriously wrong and i think im dying and absolutely refuse to leave until they find out whats causing me to be so tense, shaky, depressed, like im having a stroke or heart attack all month.

Ty to anyone who took the time to read this, it was so hard to type this bc i simpily cant concentrate on much, I keep having to retype typos, erase extra periods, and i keep repeating the typo unless i stare at the letter im pressing, Its taken me over an hr. Its ALMOST like im super high all the time, but without the sweet comforting relaxing feeling you normally get. I guess w/o that element, being really hign could be interpreted as scary. Idk, im either losing my mind or ive been about to have stroke or heart attack all this month or edibles got me somehow. Ill repost the strength if i can ever get it out of him so that can be evaluated.

Again THANK YOU SO MUCH for any insight on this.

 

Thanks for the quick reply, thats kinda what i was wanting to know, that it wouldnt mess with bp and such. im gonna eventually go back to the ER and im gonna demand a full body ct scan to make sure there isnt something going on in my lower body, esp. since thats where most of my pain and cramps originate. That and my foot worries me bad.